black sea

the black sea 
is blue and beautiful
sometimes I am ugly
as compared to a plant
i do not know beauty

the way you find beauty 
is to plant it inside you
like a bone
i pretend to see it's outline
and feeling superficial
the self loathing kicks in

the black sea 
is blue and beautiful
the beauty of women is 
dangerous. rueful we have 
ourselves to blame

when you feel the pain
it does no good to push right in on it
you feel around the edges
testing the water
it is at the edge 
where you grow confused

the black sea blue and beautiful

feel around the edges    spider shy 
tracing contours    close your eyes
your are a cloud so i lose my mind

the way i find you 
is to plant you inside me
like a bone